Have you ever had moments where you realize a flaw in your character or the way you handle things and think, ‘How did I not know this wasn’t a good thing?’ ‘Am I really like that?’ ‘Why didn’t I see it this way before?’ Yep, that’s been me learning something about myself since last month.
P.S: My day has been hectiiiic, but entry 4 must be written🥲
Okay, let’s get the ball rolling.
I’ll be writing about blindspots in character/personality and how it is by God’s mercy that He brings our attention to them. I am in a season where God is helping me see blindspots through my interactions with people. For example, in a conversation with a friend, I realized that I don’t have the right mindset when it comes to approaching business and my career. I noticed that I’m quick to let go of things that push me out of my comfort zone. I saw that I don’t push myself enough, and I suffer for it.
The Lord first brought my attention to this in the case of prayer. He helped me notice how I haven’t truly learnt perseverance in prayer. I noticed that I have not learnt to stay on a matter until I see something happen, until I see results. I can’t think of a better scripture to explain perseverance in prayer than this one:
Luke 18:1-8
‘Then Jesus told his disciples a parable to show them that they should always pray and not give up. He said: “In a certain town there was a judge who neither feared God nor cared what people thought. And there was a widow in that town who kept coming to him with the plea, ‘Grant me justice against my adversary.’ “For some time he refused. But finally he said to himself, ‘Even though I don’t fear God or care what people think, yet because this widow keeps bothering me, I will see that she gets justice, so that she won’t eventually come and attack me!’ ” And the Lord said, “Listen to what the unjust judge says. And will not God bring about justice for his chosen ones, who cry out to him day and night? Will he keep putting them off? I tell you, he will see that they get justice, and quickly. However, when the Son of Man comes, will he find faith on the earth?” ‘
Over the last few weeks I have seen how my lack of perseverance has affected other aspects of my life, and I am now choosing the route of resilience because I have seen how times and opportunities have been wasted because I did not care enough to “stress” myself. I truly believed I was a go-getter, that I usually give things my best until they wear me out. But the truth is, I wasn’t doing enough to achieve the results I wanted. I wasn’t open to stepping out of my subconscious comfort zone. I thank God for light. He is helping me see that it is okay to embrace the big pictures.
I truly don’t know how I’d navigate this adult life without God😩 He has been my greatest advantage. He understands us best and knows how to help in each situation.
4/5🎊 The four entries I have so far have been definitely spread beyond four days, but I ‘m glad I’m still setting my mind on the task. One more entry to go!